killing cancer with kindness and love, joy and peace…

I was recently diagnosed with colon cancer. I have already gone through chemotherapy and radiation and am facing surgery next week. I try to stay as positive as I can, but there are times when I get scared. When the weight of having cancer with four small children sits heavy on my chest and makes it hard to breathe.

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Cancer is a thief. It can take the ability to have more children. It takes portions of one’s body and distorts one’s self-image. It steals energy and time. Cancer takes. Cancer steals. Cancer destroys.

We all know cancer can kill. But even worse than taking a life is when cancer crushes or destroy’s one’s spirit, one’s soul. Destroy’s everything about the person; destroy’s what makes them who they are. Cancer is defined as “something evil or malignant that spreads destructively” (Merriam-Webster). Cancer can be anything evil that spreads destruction. With this definition, almost everyone is fighting cancer. Are you?

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Cancer can destroy a person’s courage, their will to live, their fight. It slowly grows uncertainty, fear and doubt. I saw it in the faces as I sat in the treatment room, the room where chemo drips poison into veins. I saw the exhaustion, the worry, the giving up…

Sadness, anger, anxiety, even depression are normal feelings when a person has cancer. I have felt them myself many times. I believe you should admit and acknowledge them, face them and allow yourself to feel the feelings. They will come. But I am encouraging you not to stay in them.

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killing cancer with kindness and love, joy and peace by Kinderfarmhomeschool.com

killing cancer with kindness and love, joy and peace by Kinderfarmhomeschool.com

Will there be days when the cancer takes our joy? Absolutely. But we can’t let the cancer steal our joy for good. We cannot let cancer steal the smile on our faces and the song in our hearts. We cannot let cancer steal our soul, all of those things that makes us who we are.

We cannot let cancer, let evil, win. We. Must. Fight.

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We don’t ever have to give up. When we are tired we have a God who fights with us and for us. We have hope. There is a way to fight the fear, to fight the doubt, to fight the lack of hope. A miracle medicine, a weapon that destroys cancer. Paul shares it with us in Galations 5:22,23.

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.”

I cannot, I will not, let cancer steal my joy.

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Instead of cancer killing me…I plan on killing cancer. And I plan on doing it using a cocktail of nine different miracle weapons; the fruits of the spirit. This is my battle plan.

You show love and share kindness and goodness with others. As bad as we think our situation is, someone else’s  is always worse. Focusing on other’s takes our eyes off of ourselves and puts them onto Christ. Do something for another who you see hurting. Love Does.
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killing cancer with kindness and love, joy and peace by Kinderfarmhomeschool.com

killing cancer with kindness and love, joy and peace by Kinderfarmhomeschool.com

killing cancer with kindness and love, joy and peace by Kinderfarmhomeschool.com

Even though we have moments, maybe even days where we may be sad, try to find joy. “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,  whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything” (James 1:2-4) Finding joy changes our outlook. Share your joy with other’s. Share your journey, your story. Share your hope in Jesus.

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Be faithful in trusting Jesus and claim the promises He has given us. Trusting in His faithfulness and believing that He knows the end from the beginning, that we are in His loving hands, brings an unexplainable, supernatural peace.

Be gentle with those who make inappropriate or foolish comments. Practice self-control and hold your tongue. Sometimes people say the wrong things but their motives are often pure. Try to gift them with grace.

Try to be patient with the process, patient with the treatment, patient with yourself. “Sometimes what we learn and who we become in the process of waiting is even more important than what we’re waiting for” (Mandy Hale).

I could find no studies to prove the correlation between a positive attitude and healing, but I know there is one; I feel it. Positive feelings replace negative ones. Hope replaces doubt. Joy displaces despair.

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Even if cancer may one day take my body, it will never take my joy.

I may have cancer, but cancer does not, cancer will not, have me.

8 thoughts on “killing cancer with kindness and love, joy and peace…

  1. You mentioned not finding studies between positive thinking and healing. May I recommend the book, Switch On Your Brain by Dr. Caroline Leaf. She is a Christian and has some amazing things to share about the mind and health. I too am a Christian and homeschool my 6 kids. You will be in my prayers as you are walking this road.

  2. This is so beautiful, there are just tears. What a gift you are to your family, community, and Internet community. I’ve been encouraged and inspired in huge ways by you ever since I came across your blog during one of the hardest times of my own life. Thank you, and I thank God for you and will keep praying for you!

  3. You are a shining light on a hill. I’m so proud of your commitment to Jesus, your courage to open up your soul and your fight against this disease. I’m praying for healing in your body and for a supercharged, supernatural God-filled joy to rule over your spirit. God Bless You.

  4. There is so much beauty in what you shared! There is a woman on staff at my church who survived breast cancer. She shared in her testimony the same things you shared, that as a human being you need to allow yourself to feel all the feelings you have at first, to cry, to get angry to be scared…then you roll up your sleeves and you stand up and fight!! Yes there are days harder than others, but our strength comes from the Lord, the joy of the Lord. I am thinking of you and praying for you, this week, through this season. XOXO

  5. Heidi,

    You have always been an inspiration and role model. You have touched and influenced the lives of so many. Keep fighting! We are praying for you.

  6. Love you Heidi..I know today is the day! Woke up early this morning thinking about you, prayed for you and then pulled up your blog. You blessed me again, moved me to tears. Once again God is blessing others through your words! Choked up as I read your words to Eric and the kids as we curled up together in our hotel room miles away from home…. thank you for your words!

  7. I am a former oncology RN (worked for over a decade giving chemo, blood, etc… In a couple large hospitals.) it’s anecdotal, but the patients I cared for with faith (albeit any faith ) and support faired much better than those with out such faith and support. I have had the honor of being present while many people have passed their Earthly bodies, and the soul fights and clings and writhes in those who fear. Those who were calm, content, and had faith usually passed more peacefully and with less pain. This is not to say they weren’t fighters until the end, but the soul didn’t cling in a fearful way. I pray the great physician heals you to full health and brings those He has blessed with the knowledge to help and heal into your life in amazing ways. I pray the surgeons hands are guided by Him and all those in your OR and recovery have His hand in your care. May you continue to bless all you encounter.

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