I was recently diagnosed with colon cancer. I have already gone through chemotherapy and radiation and am facing surgery next week. I try to stay as positive as I can, but there are times when I get scared. When the weight of having cancer with four small children sits heavy on my chest and makes it hard to breathe.
Cancer is a thief. It can take the ability to have more children. It takes portions of one’s body and distorts one’s self-image. It steals energy and time. Cancer takes. Cancer steals. Cancer destroys.
We all know cancer can kill. But even worse than taking a life is when cancer crushes or destroy’s one’s spirit, one’s soul. Destroy’s everything about the person; destroy’s what makes them who they are. Cancer is defined as “something evil or malignant that spreads destructively” (Merriam-Webster). Cancer can be anything evil that spreads destruction. With this definition, almost everyone is fighting cancer. Are you?
Cancer can destroy a person’s courage, their will to live, their fight. It slowly grows uncertainty, fear and doubt. I saw it in the faces as I sat in the treatment room, the room where chemo drips poison into veins. I saw the exhaustion, the worry, the giving up…
Sadness, anger, anxiety, even depression are normal feelings when a person has cancer. I have felt them myself many times. I believe you should admit and acknowledge them, face them and allow yourself to feel the feelings. They will come. But I am encouraging you not to stay in them.
Will there be days when the cancer takes our joy? Absolutely. But we can’t let the cancer steal our joy for good. We cannot let cancer steal the smile on our faces and the song in our hearts. We cannot let cancer steal our soul, all of those things that makes us who we are.
We cannot let cancer, let evil, win. We. Must. Fight.
We don’t ever have to give up. When we are tired we have a God who fights with us and for us. We have hope. There is a way to fight the fear, to fight the doubt, to fight the lack of hope. A miracle medicine, a weapon that destroys cancer. Paul shares it with us in Galations 5:22,23.
“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.”
I cannot, I will not, let cancer steal my joy.
Instead of cancer killing me…I plan on killing cancer. And I plan on doing it using a cocktail of nine different miracle weapons; the fruits of the spirit. This is my battle plan.
You show love and share kindness and goodness with others. As bad as we think our situation is, someone else’s is always worse. Focusing on other’s takes our eyes off of ourselves and puts them onto Christ. Do something for another who you see hurting. Love Does.
Even though we have moments, maybe even days where we may be sad, try to find joy. “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything” (James 1:2-4) Finding joy changes our outlook. Share your joy with other’s. Share your journey, your story. Share your hope in Jesus.
Be faithful in trusting Jesus and claim the promises He has given us. Trusting in His faithfulness and believing that He knows the end from the beginning, that we are in His loving hands, brings an unexplainable, supernatural peace.
Be gentle with those who make inappropriate or foolish comments. Practice self-control and hold your tongue. Sometimes people say the wrong things but their motives are often pure. Try to gift them with grace.
Try to be patient with the process, patient with the treatment, patient with yourself. “Sometimes what we learn and who we become in the process of waiting is even more important than what we’re waiting for” (Mandy Hale).
I could find no studies to prove the correlation between a positive attitude and healing, but I know there is one; I feel it. Positive feelings replace negative ones. Hope replaces doubt. Joy displaces despair.
Even if cancer may one day take my body, it will never take my joy.
I may have cancer, but cancer does not, cancer will not, have me.